Thursday, December 04, 2008

Before I leave...

Yesterday we completed watching the last instalment of Dasvidaniya. I have been thinking ever since about my wish list. So many things that I should have to do in order to settle my accounts in case I need to leave before time. I certainly won't be able to limit my list to a mere 10 things, unlike Amar Kaul. So many debts to own up to, so many apologies to acknowledge, so many moments to rewind to and re-create. To learn Spanish. To learn salsa. To publish an anthology. To become a Rabindrasangeet singer. To complete reading the entire Agatha Christie collection. To have a child of my own. To resolve my parents' conflicts forever. To listen to all the secret sorrows Mitu (my sibling) has been piling up against the world and would only care to share with me. To take my mother on a long holiday to some beach. To confess to Baba the tears I've secretly shed every time I've argued with him. To tell Brinda, Sanjukta, Sohini, Sharmistha, Shobhana, Indranil, Rashi, Pooja, Tua, Ayantika, Shonali, Swarnadeep, Nilanjana, Debarati, Barnali and Moumita how they have all somehow contributed to making me a better person. To tell Bubun/Angshuman (my cousin) what a difference his mere presence or absence can make in my life. To tell K what he means to me. To just let life know how much I enjoyed the warmth of its embrace.

I think I'd better get down to it before it's too late.

2 comments:

Casuarina said...

Quoting Sharmistha's email comment on this post :

"I got to see dasvidaniya now....but I think this blog was more of a thanksgiving piece....I appreciate your frnship since 1999...We always should let people know how we feel about them...usually we are capable of letting them know our hard feelings somehow....but not all those other feelings that are a major part of our heart, our life....so i recommend "start saying those 3 little words "I love you" to every person who means a lot to our life...

I just didn't agree with one wish of yours...."rabindrasangeet singer"...aren't there enough already?lets try something new as"gargi sangeet"...now that I would love to hear...

keep blogging darling....the way you write mesmerises me....had always been that way since eternity...

love you...."

Clytemnestra said...

You know what makes for a great friendship - a bond that you cherish life-long? Its the unconscious dependability that develops between the people involved.....the wordless communion, the ever present back-of-the-mind "I know he/she's there no matter what" reassurance, and the constant itch to share the minutest and the stupidest details of your life with him/her. Its almost like a marriage, it seems to me, without the baggage! And I'm honoured to have felt that way with you.
Love you :)

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